wait it out.

so the new imogen heap cd has finally come out, and i must say it is amazing. sheesh it should be after waiting for 2 years. anyways...

not much is new, my mom picked colors to paint the room, i finally got all the wallpaper off the walls. i've been hanging at home daily i dont feel motivated to get all dressed up and go anywhere. but i did clean my room, it took 3 hours and about 75 hangers to hang all the clothes that were thrown around my room. im just ready to feel comfy in my room and hang my art on the walls and put all my books on the shelves... idk. right now it feels like im living in a hotel, not all moved in and stuff and its been over 5 months!

i feel like im getting bigger daily. its weird, i don't like gaining weight but i can't really help it ya know.

someone asked me how old i was the other day, and i sat there for a minute and completely forgot. at first i said 19 and then i was like wait? no im not, am i? i completly forgot that im 20 haha. sounds stupid but it doesnt feel any different, i just feel behind in what i want to do with my life. but i know it will all work out accordingly.

lately days seem like hours. i look at the calendar thinking its monday and its already saturday. time is flying by which is good i guess but it also quite scary to think that after that one day everything will be over and i will have to pick everything up and start my life over. not pick up where i left off, because i don't want to be that person anymore. but start to reinvent myself so i can be a better person and actually go after my dreams and not get distracted. i hate distractions, they always come at the "best" times don't they...

right now i really want some cheese pizza and some cheesecake. im done writing, my brain is going haywire. im going to read...