Friday, December 18, 2009

Where to start?

Life has changed dramatically over the past year. I live back at home, I have a 2 wk old baby boy(Luke), I'm back in school trying to finish up my degree so I can start teaching. Over the past year I've lost alot and I've gained alot. I look at life completely different, I'm thankful for so many new things. For example the fact that Luke is healthy, I'm thankful for my parents supporting me through everything, I'm thankful for my true genuine friends. I owe it all to God for protecting me all these years, I've learned a huge lesson by becoming a single mom, but I wouldn't change one second of it. That child is what motivates me, he makes me so happy, and I love him with every part of who I am. Ya know I look back sometimes and get sad because I feel like I should have experienced more before he got here. But then I remind myself I'm only 20 and if I want something bad enough then I can make it happen. Over the past 10 months my relationship with my mom
has grown so much, not only do I look to her for advice but she is honestly my best friend, I look at all the stuff she put up w throughout high school and I'm shocked. But I guess that's what parents are supposed to do right. So it's been two weeks since I had Luke and I'm starting to feel normal, I'm ready to work out and start dancing again. I'm really going to push myself this next year. I want to be the best I can be.
I've been praying alot lately for God to keep us safe and guide us throughout this next year. I pray that Luke has great role models and that he becomes a Godly gentleman.

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